pretty good moment :)

I have several pieces of good news. One is: I got two of my three medications through patient assistance programs! I am so thankful for that. These two meds cost more than a hundred dollars each month with a prescription savings card but no insurance. So with this assistance, my medications wont cost more than my rent. :)

Another good thing... I"m forgetting it... Still forgetting it.

Well, yesterday, working morning and afternoon went well. I thought, I will be able to handle this. Then today was a rough day. Not so much the kids as me, at least at first. Then I got a bunch of kids, so anybody would be stressed. So part of me wonders if I had more trouble today because I worked long yesterday. I'm still worried about working two afternoons a week in addition to my mornings, but I'm mostly sticking with a somewhat worried, "I think it will work out." And I do. At least, I really, really, hope it will work out. Part of it is just that now I feel like I"m working "enough." So much for learning that I'm an okay person without working "enough." I can understand the concept with other people, it's more with myself that I have this issue.

What was the other good thing?

I dared to join an online dating website. Who would have thought? I finally feel "ready" - for a first date. Not sure about anything beyond that. :) Great progress socially for me, though.

Ummm, I talked to my mom about switching from the gym membership my parents have generously gotten me to taking dance lessons once a week. I think that it might work out better and be more enjoyable. I'm not doing a good job at actually going to the gym to exercise.

I rearranged my tiny apartment so that the heater can actually heat the room when I need it too. :) I just have to finish that so that the whole room is done, not just in a state frozen midway on the moving around process. Oh, well, it works for now. I kept a path where I needed one, my seat on the couch, the basics. So procrastination can be performed successfully. But I want to procrastinate more on my school work than on my house organizing, so I think I will get further tonight.

Ah, I remember what might be the other good thing. I got a proctor set up for my online class tests. And I was bold (for me) enough to actually talk to a librarian so that I can get this done for free instead of paying 15 dollars every time to take it at the local testing center. I was about to give in and just use the testing center, even though it would probably end up costing me something near a hundred dollars this semester. It shows one way that my anxiety can cost me money. :) I'd rather spend money than put in the extra effort and ask a favor of a librarian.  I think I feel like I'm making extra work for her, but I don't feel that way about the testing center, because that is their job, not to mention the money I pay for the service. But my anxiety isn't charging my bank account this time!