What do you know, the insert picture function thingy is working today! Hence my photo not taking over more of the blog than it should.
Today, if OCD were little g gods, I would have offended the gods.
Actually, I did it last night. Thank you so much, professor, for giving OCD the opportunity to knock me to my knees. I'll have you know, however, that I am making some small show of resistance. Which I will explain.
This is what I did. I did the communication screen with a little kid as per the instructions.
Then, looking over it at home, I thought I missed something, so proceeded to correct something to say how the child actually pronounced it, not how I forgot and left it. And then the monster pounced.
Because, being an hour or so removed from the situation, I no longer knew for absolute certain how the child said that word anymore. But I had just struck through the assumed mispronounced sound. So do I go all the way and put above it the sound I think she substituted? Do I stop where I am? Do I type the lab up so that they never see the offending strike of the pen?
Context; the child's pronouncing or miss-pronouncing this sound is irrelevant; the sound doesn't need learned until later in the child's life.
But accuracy! has forever been compromised. And, since I have OCD and the OCD happened to pounce on it, I am dreadfully aware of it.
Well, I tried to cut my losses and just not do anything more. Which might show them that I made a mistake, or might look like the child ommited the sound, which I'm positive didn't happen. So maybe leaving it was misleading. But you can't erase blue pen from black print on white paper. Which is kind of the idea of using a blue pen. Showing it is valid and unaltered. Rats!
The OCD is very disturbed.
So, I did not explain my predicament to the instructor about my minor pen mark. I thought that sounded too compulsion-like ("Professor, I'm so sorry; I made a mistake. I put this mark on the paper and now I don't know what I should have done. So here is my scrupulously honest letter explaining my very horrible tiny mistake. Please don't fail me for "falsifying" information on a lab").
The "falsifying" word comes from the exposition on the academic honesty standard that was carefully expounded to us at the beginning of the semester. I realize that what it really means is that I will actually do the lab instead of sitting at home and making up the answers. But OCD is busy trying to make a way for me to be kicked out of school.
The other thing I didn't do was re-type the lab. Which is compulsion-ish while also arrousing OCD on the "that might be dishonest" account, so I'm kind of left 50-50 on that being a compulsion resisted and a compulsion completed all at once.
So if I drew an OCD cartoon today (which I still might, but you wont see it until later), it wouldn't be as victorious as the picture above. It would probably be me suffering the anxiety of a run-in with OCD before I come out the victor (which means OCD doesn't have to get back at me yet, since he's still getting at me the first time, so I guess that is a small plus).