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This weekend, I am house sitting. I am glad that I am capable of doing that now (i.e., emotionally). But I am finding it somewhat challenging. I feel off because I'm not following my normal routine. Ungrounded, because I'm not in my normal places.

On top of that, I have an interview coming up this week. Good thing, but would involve a slower transition (i.e., they would not have enough work for me right away for me to leave my other job, so I'd have to work both for a time). So I have mixed feelings there.

And then there are the migraines. At least, that is what my regular doctor thought these headaches were. And I've been getting them when I raise successful antidepressant SSRIs too high dose-wise.

I've had one yesterday morning and one this afternoon. I'm still hoping they are from allergies, yesterday from the house I'm taking care of (i.e., the pets?), and today from working in the garden in the hot sun. However, I'll drop back to the lower dose for the low dose part of the month (it was time anyway). I hope it isn't my SSRI, though, because I was feeling so good.

Positively, did I already say this, or not? I'm working on affirming myself - i.e., positive self talk. It is going well. Writing some positive statement (or coping statement) and hanging it up in my apartment seems to help. For example, one says, "It is okay to feel impatient; this, too, shall pass." Somehow I forget both pieces of that statement. But it helps to remember it during the stressful times at work.

Now I must close because the building is closing (and I don't have internet at home). Have a good week!

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  1. Tina Fariss BarbourMay 5, 2013 at 7:50 PM

    Abigail, I really like your idea of positive affirmations. Writing them out would help remind me of things that are hard to remember when I'm in the midst of anxiety.

    I hope your migraines get better. Do they last the entire time you're on the increase dose, or are they centered around the change in doses?

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    1. AbigailMay 6, 2013 at 1:47 PM

      Thanks. With the other medications, the migrains did slow down to every three days, but I stopped taking the medication at the high dose before they actually went away.

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  2. ElizaMay 6, 2013 at 7:40 AM

    Sorry about your headaches. I've been getting them a lot lately too which for me is due to weather and allergies.

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    1. AbigailMay 6, 2013 at 1:49 PM

      I'm sorry you've been having headaches. I hope they get better soon.

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  3. 71ยบ & SunnyMay 8, 2013 at 7:04 PM

    Oh, sorry about the migraines. Just had one myself yesterday. Ugh. They are terrible aren't they? I hope you can figure out what's going on and that you can get rid of them.

    Good for you for house-sitting. Oh of course you feel out of sorts, I always do when I'm not at home. Even when I'm on a vacation that I really want to be on, I still struggle with feeling strange. I think you're doing awesome!

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    1. AbigailMay 9, 2013 at 5:29 PM

      Thanks, Sunny. My headaches are getting better, and I got through housesitting.

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