I splurged on colored duct tape. More encouraging to work with, don't you think? Doesn't look like it belongs in the white witch's stone castle (The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe, C.S. Lewis) anymore.
I got one of my books that I ordered in the mail. Not the one I most wanted to read right now, but the second one. Actually, when I got it, I read a little from the back (I already read some from the beginning before I purchased it). Then I just held it. I wanted that connection with proof that someone has been through a dark depression with doubts about God and spiritual things and came out the other side. The book? Loosing God: Clinging to Faith Through Doubt and Depression, by Matt Rogers. I can't exactly recommend it yet, since I haven't read the whole thing, but I've appreciated most of what I've read so far.