Friday, March 15, 2013

problems and obstacles that aren't so bad

My biggest problem with taking naps in the middle of the day is not that I might not fall asleep as soon when night comes. Because that has been hit or miss. And besides, loosing an hour or two at night in place of an hour or two in the day doesn't sound too bad (and that is as much as would likely happen). No, my biggest problem is getting upset with myself and simultaneously anxious about not getting to sleep, often resulting in not even trying to go to sleep. Yup, those are my problems. Oh, and sometimes feeling half asleep/out of touch with reality afterwards.

So yes, I took a nap today and have almost forgiven myself. But how do you change your opinion of yourself? "Self, I'm okay with your taking a nap." - well, my brain was okay with it, but not my emotions. "Self, I'm not upset with you for taking a nap." - That isn't true! Afraid I can't change my feelings about myself by snapping my fingers. Now, a glittery wand might be a different matter... - just kidding.

Other than that, I've started writing on my part of the research paper in the second group project of the semester (different class, different people, fewer people). There is the "I'm too hungry to think" obstacle. And the "don't plagiarize" obstacle - hasn't given me too much trouble yet. And the "where did I just read that" obstacle. That one is annoying. And the "I read that a long time ago and I'm sure I could find it or something similar if I just spent the time and effort, but that would potentially add a whole 'nuther source to the reference page for one little quote or paraphrased fact" obstacle.

And now, I've given up for tonight and am happily blogging. But I've got to leave now, due to the building closing. The benefit of not having internet at home... really, it is a good thing. It limits my time online.

4 comments:

  1. Good luck with your project! I know there are a lot of obstacles, but I also know you can do it. Hang in there!

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  2. I hope your project goes well. Just take one obstacle at a time. You can do it! :-)

    And please don't beat up yourself for taking a nap. It can be a form of self-care to rest when you need it. I really enjoy my naps!

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  3. I love naps! But I was smiling to myself as I read your post - it really is hard not to beat ourselves up when we are nice to ourselves. Sheesh.

    I'm glad your group this time is different (oh, how I hate group work). It sounds like a much better situation.

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  4. Thanks to each of you for your encouragement

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