I now know why I shouldn't sleep thirteen and a half hours and then eat an inferior breakfast to my normal breakfast (the granola was gone and I didn't want oatmeal, so I came up with something else): the end result is me feeling exhausted. Of course, I'm not really repentful; that's thirteen and a half hours when I didn't have to think! The day is successfully shortened. The only problem is that now I feel like taking a nap (two hours after waking up).
My merry-go-round
I've been keeping a mood log since sometime last May, or maybe June. I've done it on the OpenOffice software similar to Excel. This means I can do cool stuff like make charts and graphs to see how my mood has swooped around over the last year. This last week, I found that you can also put in a trend line over your chart. This was neat, but disturbing. I used it over charts made from week averages for the last 10 or 11 months. I learned that: My depression at its best (each day, then averaged per week) is getting better. My depression at its worst (each day, then averaged per week) is getting worse. My anxiety is getting worse. My sleep time is increasing. My exercise time is decreasing. Or, in short, my worst is getting worse. So then I wonder if I'm using the same standards to judge my mood as I was using in May last year. After all, the mood ratings are subjective, done each day, or occasionally every few days. But what if anxiety that I called a 5 in May would ...
karin says:
ReplyDeleteI too love to sleep in as then i'm not dealing with ocd or worrying about how it might show up. I also think that dealing with ocd DOES make me tired, both with the energy used up in doing ERP tasks and in wondering how long before the next unintentional ocd thing is going to hit and how i will have to deal with it. Also then i don't see stuff that triggers the ocd thots which just means a happier day when i DO get up.
It's probably not a good idea to sleep overlong; i do understand the draw it has since i fall for it most of the time!