Sunday, January 27, 2013

Well, this is a day that blogging actually takes work. I'm tired. I'm sick (I'm thinking a sinus infection, but I have until Thursday to recover before I plan to go to the doctor - gotta get that full two weeks in for the virus to run it's lovely course). And I'm tired.

But hey, I'm not stuck thinking about death.

Per my counselor's suggestion, I decided not to sing with the worship band at church every Sunday. I was concerned that it was adding to my stress in more of an unhelpful way than a helpful, triumph over anxiety way. So I was singing from the congregation, safe by my chair today. And I was a little sad that I wasn't up singing with them. But then it occured to me; I'm not stuck on depressed thoughts of death like I sometimes was last weekend. That absense made me feel very happy. So, I suppose, that outweighs my missing singing with the worship team. That also explains how I can be pretty happy when I'm still notably sick, purely because my symptoms are not as severe or disturbing as they could be.

And instead, I'm thinking about a nap. Please, please, I just want to sleep. But that requires driving home from the library.

So, so much for researching for my toddler class next week. I'll pull something out for tomorrow. I think we will do scrap paper mosaics. I'll figure out how to tie that into my theme when I choose which of my book templates to copy for another day this coming week. And beyond that, I can do it tomorrow or Tuesday.

So, I wish you a cheerful Sunday and hope you are healthier than me, but if you are suffering from one of the cold viruses going around, I wish you a good, satisfying nap.

5 comments:

  1. Hope you feel better soon, Abigail. I'm sorry you've been sick.

    Glad the thoughts were better this weekend. I think sometimes we can overload ourselves without even realizing it.

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  2. Hope you feel better soon, Abigail!

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  3. So sorry you are sick; get well soon!

    By the way - is it just me, or did I read some "conquering the perfectionist" in there in your willingness to not have everything figured out for your class ahead of time? ;) I think you need to draw the perfectionist monster!

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  4. I hope you feel better very soon!

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  5. Thanks, y'all! I'm feeling some better.

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