Hmmm. I think there might be a little problem. My blog comments have gotten longer than my blog posts. Sorry. I'll try to comment more concisely. :)

I was having a bad afternoon. I took a nap, but even that didn't stop it. I'm in the normal pattern - the down side of it. I get more depressed, then I start having trouble falling asleep at night, and the loss of sleep seems to make the depression worse... It seems that sometimes if I really focus on doing what I need to do to help the depression (exercise, food, sleep, relaxing), that can change the spiral back around.

So I told myself I only had to exercise 5 minutes today to cross it off my list. But I then told myself to exercise for 10 minutes. I exercised for 15. Small steps are so much easier than trying to right everything at once (which just wont happen right now; I'm not feeling that good).

And reading blogs helped just now. Thanks to you all with OCD who blog about it!

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  1. Tina Fariss BarbourFebruary 21, 2012 at 7:23 PM

    Thank you for blogging, Abigail! If you need to write a long comment, then write away! Sometimes I get a little long too . . .

    You're right--the small steps are easier and they are important. They lead the way forward. I hope you feel better soon. Here's a {hug}.

    Tina

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