Friday, April 13, 2012

tired of the tired side effect

Tuesday and Wednesday nights, I was able to turn my light off by 10:15 and made it to work on time the following mornings. Last night? I ran late. This morning? I ran late again. It really bothers me. I don't think I'd loose my job over it, but if it became too much of a problem, I'm afraid I could loose the hours that I currently work, which I really like.

Today, when apologizing to a coworker, I explained that I was on a medication that I couldn't wake up on time from. The coworker surprised me when she said that it wasn't my fault. I, of course, was blaming the medication, but blaming myself even more. But she wasn't blaming me. Another coworker didn't even notice that I was late (8 minutes late; terrible, in my perfectionist mind). I see my psychiatrist Thursday. Hopefully we can find a solution. I realize that I haven't been getting as much sleep as I should because I keep staying up late, but even then, I have normally still been able to get up in time in the morning, not come more than five minutes late to work twice in one week.

Anyway, I seem to have finally woken up from my afternoon nap, but my brain is still having some trouble with normal thinking. Maybe if I eat supper that will help...


  1. Sorry you're so tired. I get like that a lot. I don't know if it's the meds I'm on or the fact that I stay up too late (like now :-)), but it's hard for me to get out of bed in the morning. I hope your doctor can help.

    Of course, you work really hard, too, so that could be adding to your tiredness.

  2. It's hard for me to get up in the morning too. I don't know if it's the meds, or years of dealing with ocd have finally exhausted me. I used to think it was because i was 'safe' in bed, not doing ocd rituals, but i still have a sleeping problem. I seem to want 11 hrs a night!

    Hope you can get yours solved soon. As a college student i could manage to push myself out of bed even with late nights and essays to write.

  3. Is the medication proving beneficial? If it really makes a positive difference with the ocd symptoms, I'd live with the 8 minutes and just work on it. Hope you find a good soluttion, and best to you!

  4. Sorry you are so tired. You made me realize that 5min. late isn't that big a deal even though my OCD cracks the whip on me if I'm 4 or 5min. late.