update

Well, I've had quite the week. Exposure on Sunday, talking up an exposure on Monday (like a loop tape, except that I just repeated myself speaking instead of recording myself), making a mistake at work that could have turned out badly, getting through the anxiety that brought up, and now, I'm getting ready to take a test.

So I guess things are going okay now. Work was more enjoyable today. And, unlike my dream this morning, I did get to the library in time to take my quizzes before I am scheduled to take my test. (And I'm feeling pretty positive about the test, too.)

My counselor recommends I do a written exposure, repeating myself in writing, and noting my anxiety level a couple times per page. She thinks that it will be easier to see the anxiety going down. And she, of course, approved of my trying to do exposures during the week and not just on Sundays.

Well, I'll keep this short and go get ready to take my test. Happy November to all!

Comments

  1. 71ยบ & SunnyNovember 1, 2012 at 1:55 PM

    Good luck on your test!

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  2. ElizaNovember 2, 2012 at 8:12 AM

    Happy November to you!

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  3. Tina Fariss BarbourNovember 2, 2012 at 10:57 AM

    Hope your test went well for you! I like the idea of using written exposures.

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  4. AbigailNovember 4, 2012 at 2:00 PM

    Thank you all. My test did go well, as did the written exposure.

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